I am on the verge of losing it!!! We went to my dads today and T stayed with dad while i went to see my solicitor, well T was on it from the minute he woke up (going places always sends him crazy long before the event). So we got a taxi there and when we got there i said to T as i was walking in to dads house (let myself in) to go find Grandad and say hello, trying to encourage appropriate greetings (T struggles with this) he started to drop to the floor laughing and hiding behind me as i went to greet my dad.
He refused to say hello and was hiding all the time, he hurt himself several times while trying to stop being seen by my dad and did he care? nope not my T. Within 5 mins of being there dad had shouted at him (T was VERY hyper & silly) and when i came back from my appointment T was sat on grandads lap watching the box together, bless em!
So after my appointment we stayed at dads until my bro came, T was covering his ears a lot, spinning himself and laying down laughing about the world moving, i could see he was enjoying it and was stimulating himself to be 'happier' he was loving it and a sensory room is a must for T, one day eh!
T started to get very silly when it was coming to leaving dads, like he does (i really detest transitions!) and he threw his trainers at me and was throwing himelf about all over the place, moving from one room to another. I just knew it was gonna be bad going home.
Taxi came and had to wait 10 mins just so we could get out of the house! T was running away and hiding and refusing to put hios shoes on and laughing his head off during it all, also using bad language. So we get him in the taxi, told driver to lock the doors and tell him he has to by law put his seatbelt on, the taxi man did and in the end after lots of the usual resistance he did. Nothing is ever easy!! he was kicking the seat, shouting and doing all the usual.
When we got 2 my end the drama was about to heat up! well he started to try to get out of the car and if he did he would of hit another parked car, so i had to restrain him while trying to get a firm grip to get him out of the car. Well i had my door open to get him out my side (only side we could get out of) and i have a long queue of traffic waiting for me to stop battling with T to get out of the car! (our street is a one way street) in the end i had to get back in and let the traffic go, i hate all this hard work doing transitions it wears me down!
I managed to get him out of the car and then he starts to strip off his top half off while dropping to the floor, i had to restrain him to stop him cracking his head open on the concrete path. He was a crazy child if i am honest and i really did struggle to get him in the house.
And now he has been self harming and really violent with me, i cant take it, he keeps screaming that he is scared and screaming at me constantly, my head hurts
I dont know how much more i can take before i flip, surely i cant survivie all this!